When all else seems gone, there is God...

I have been learning so much from God recently. I realized that I don't have close people to necessarily help me in decisions, but... As I was thinking about this the thought came, "It's just You and me God." In my spirit God was encouraging me that, "That's where I want it to be." Whether I have close friends or a future husband, I have God, and what more do I need?

Fear is such a damaging emotion. I have had fears all my life. They are so ingranded in me that many times I don't see that it is fear. But I am learning to recognize fear and that it is NOT normal.

Maybe a lot of the things I have gone through have been God teaching me that I CAN get through them with His power and His prescence. I have learned that He is there to guide me through things and be with me to step out and do new things (such as go to Hong Kong). When I pray and put it all out there, even if I don't feel Him, I can make decisions to the best of my ability knowing that He is there. For instance I just had to decide on a new job and now I have it! I believe it was His will because I asked Him to close doors if it wasn't right.

And people that have an "annointing" have it from God- it is not about them, but about God. So, there is no respector of persons. We are all on the same level and noone is better than any other. Pastors are only serving a role just as anyone else in the church. Because it is not about them-or us- it is about God and where He wants someone to function. He loves each of us the same, noone is better or worse.

I have had fears and worries and probably still will when I don't keep my focus on God, but I am growing. As in Psalm 27,The Lord is the light and my salvation of whom shall I be afraid?

This is a big breakthrough for me. To begin to break the bonds of fear...what a joy!